I wrote this back in September of 2011. I came across it recently and wanted to encourage those of you who are going through dark times.
the night is dark before me
though the sunshine streams in my window
the panic is barely being held at bay
though i sit on my bed, apparent calm marking my demeanor
desperation and defeat assault me
until You speak
Why am I in this place?
For the good of others.
while the realization brings a clearing to the fog
depression isn’t driven back very far . . .
I then went on to list those burdens that weighed me down: debt, chores, discontent. But then I came to a realization.
today i need
grace for today
provision for today
strength for today
direction for today
peace for today
These days things are much better, but I still must rest in the Lord and trust Him for today.